school

I’m not a dork but neither am i one of those super popular people who care about their looks. But I like school, I don’t exactly like learning but just being there, away from home is pretty good. I do good in school since I got in all honor’s classes but I’m not one of those nerds who die when they get a B. So I think I have a reason to like school. Sure I have this one bitch at school, Helena Sukharenko. (I want her to move back to Israel) But I have more connections with popular people who can kill her school life in a day, if not an hour. Then there are populars who don’t consider me a human but I don’t consider them human either so I guess we’re pretty cool. How many of you atually liked school? Sorry I only have the morning to write so I guess I picked a pretty cheesy topic.

Coming of age

It’s not my birthday but, I recently read a blog in which a man turned 50 or forty-ten. I’m sorry, but thats a little idiotic. Let’s compare my 2 grandmothers, one is 59 and the other one is 72 I believe. The younger one is all sad and had 100 surgeries (as if she couldn’t wait for me) and acts Elise from First Wives Club “In Hollywood there are three ages: babe, single mother, and driving miss Daisy. I want to be young, science fiction young” But, you can’t be stuck on one age all the time. If God wanted us to all be the same age forever, wouldn’t he create us like that? She’s always blue trying some new cream for wrinkles, while the older one is always happy to see her granddaughters and feels happier when they call her ‘grandma.’ She inspires me, and should inspire those out there who despise their age. After all, age is just a number, and some of your souls fall in love as if you were 18. Care for everyone as if you were maybe 40. And it disgusts me when people who are 50 lie and try to act younger. Now I know all of you will say, you’re only 14 and will feel the same way when you turn 50. There are a few things I would like to say on that note. First of all, one day I will turn 50 but it won’t be in another 30 years bitches!! HAHA! Now to the serious point, I might not be happiest but who knows? I will look back at this page, read over the characteristics of both grandmothers and try my best to be like my older one. Because she is the traditional Russian grandmother. She cooks pirozhki for me and my cousins and lets the youngest one get the first one. It just brings joy to her to see us happy. So lesson, forget your age, remember to be happy and love your life, because you’ve come all this way just to notice you don’t want to get old? What about when you were my age and thought about kids, and driving a car? You got it and you’re all so melancholy. Love your life, and try to forget your age.

DO NOT let your child get whatever he/she wants. I warn you!

Some of you may think this post will be more educational and irrelevant to hating my life, but it happened to me so I think I’ll write about it. So yesterday my friend and I were chilling out in the park, and my mom’s friends son was with us. He’s about 7 and for all his life, his mom whined for everyone to be his friend. My friend is soon to be 15 and I’ll be 15 in half a year. We do not want to chill with a seven year old and that’s final! I beg my mom to make him go away and she does. He throws a whole tantrum that we’re such bitches and that he’s so poor with no one to play with. I don’t give a crying shit. If he’s so incommunicable and is only friends with people he knew since he was 4, then thats his problem. Hayat bu işte God damn it! All i need to do to make friends is say hi to some one and start a conversation. Now the kid is such a fag! Mind the fact he’s a momma’s boy, he’s also cheap as hell and an organizing freak. I’m a girl and my room looks like I had a whole war. The stuff in his room is neatly stacked and if you put something in the wrong place he will run back even if he’s downstairs to check and put it on the same place. That irritates me. Sure, you can’t be a pig but not like him or my uncle. Especially a guy. When I was seven I kinda spent money a little carelessly. He went to a store a few days ago found one of those retarded zhu-zhu pet things and took a year to check if it’s in good condition. Found some kind of piece of paper on it took the other one, then looked at the price and decided, no I shouldn’t spend money. What the hell is wrong with him? Does he enjoy to save money? He even has a retarded Webkinz and saves money for no reason on that. So, word to the wise, don’t let your kid get whatever he wants. And don’t raise as a money saver because for that karma will come and slap you trollz in the face. If karma won’t then I will.

What do you do when a guy lies?

Hi trollz! So if you go a few posts back, you will see a blog titled “I’m actually feeling better”. If you’re too lazy, then here’s a quick review. In it I write that I’m planning to date a guy to get a girl jealous, and how I’m not guilty. So that guy used to like us both. At first he asks her out, she says no. Then I’m being all flirtatious and stuff, and while that’s going on that girl (we’re good friends) tells me about the rejection and how he asked her out. Finally the guy gets enough courage and tells me he likes me. I write to him why he lied and he makes up even bigger lies to make up for that one. Let’s hope the Greek guy is better. Right…you trollz don’t know who he is either. So I met a Greek of 20 who likes me. End of story

what specific thing should my blog be about?

Ok, as you all know, I’m 14. And I’m guessing that most of the people on WordPress are 20 and up. So I guess reading about my life isn’t as important as real estate or shit like that. So I want one of the rare people who go on this site to write what I should do on my blog. But see, I like expressing my feelings to people who I will most likely never see in my life. So write your ideas and I’ll see if their good. Just need to have someone know how I feel

thanks!

There are a lot of people who i’d like to thank. the first people, are my paarents who brought to the US from the asshole Russia. Now, individually i want to thank my dad for not giving up on me, when im being a total dumb-ass. Then I’d like to thank my mother,(shocking as it seems)for giving me an opportunity to work. Then my ballet teacher, because without him I would never have my figure and posture. My friend Mark, for being there when I needed someone the most. My aunt, for my facial features. And I’m sure there’s more things to be thankful for that for now i take for granted. Sure, i write that my life sucks. Oh and one of the biggest thanks i want to make is to my friend Lizzie. She tells me that my life is worth more and that junping under a train is an idiotic idea. But I agree with her.

Hey trollz! I’m not sure if I should do some kinda thing like Dare the Valerie day, cuz you never know what comes into your wild heads, but I’ll think about it. So yesterday was a really good day, probably because I wasn’t at home most of the time. Therefore my parents couldn’t yell at me, but they seemed in a pretty cool mood. My grandparents are coming, YAY! (I wish you could do some kind of sarcastic text for when you’re being sarcastic) I don’t really like my grandparents cuz my grandma’s really persnicketty and my grandad’s on the verge of becoming an alcoholic. But its only 2 weeks and its only if they get the visa, if not then I’ll just say: I’m really sorry, but it means you don’t have to see us. So I see a lot of you read the Eclipse sucks dick post, and if you don’t mind you can write a little bit of what you think. If you disagree, you can still write and I’ll see. You could be right. OK gotta go trollz!

Eclipse sucks dick!

I know its kinda late to talk about it but eclipse was horrible! I know theres a lot of you out there who went to see it and thought it was so hot when jacob had his shirt off, and it was so cute when edward proposed, but no matter what it sucked. I haven’t the books so a lot of you will probably say: if you haven’t read the books, you don’t know the true meaning of it. But all i gotta say  to you trollz is if the plot was good then I wouldn’t have to read the books. My first problem was the fact that its boring when their not killing each other. There should have been more comedy in it. I get that when she says “I’m Switzerland” it may have brought out a chuckle but thats it. Well, also when jacob was like “Face it I’m hotter than you”. But the rest of it was shit! The beginning of it was retarded, they’re sitting in a field, he proposes 5,000 times and she rejects, then later on in the movie she says yes. WTF?? Wouldn’t it be easier to say yes in the first place? Also, I don’t get what is Bella’s problem. Can she fall in love with a human? Everytime she falls in love with either a 107 year old vampire, or a werewolf. And she chooses a 107 year old virgin, I’m sorry but you have to be a monarch in order to do that. And don’t get me wrong here, I respect monarchs 100% but WTF? I’m not on team jacob or team edward but I think jacob was a better choice. Not because of his looks, but because of the fact he’s more emotional and he’s 16. So I hope everyone’s a virgin at 16 not 107. (unless you’re a monarch) Oh and he’d also keep her safe, and i think hes hotter than edward. It didn’t seem like Edward liked her, it waas more like he was her bodyguard, cuz he never smiled at her, just looked at her with those creepy eyes. All the actors were really bad, I’m guessing they hired them because they were cheaper than brad pitt, and I feel the goal of the directors was to spend the least amount of money. Cuz the forests weren’t the Amazon rain forests, they were plain forests that were taken (if not drawn on a computer) from a helicopter. So the movies get worse and worse, but I think New Moon was the worst one.

Why does my mother hate me?

Since the day I was born, my mother hated me. Was it because I’m Turkish? But then again my father’s Turkish too and she loves him. When I was little she yelled at me, but was it my fault she had me when she was 23? And I feel like she only wanted a child so it would be a servant. Now when I see how well she acts to my little sister, I shut myself up in my room and listen to heavy metal and cry. Then I shut out. I want to run away. To Serbia, live with the love  of my life and forget about my scary past. I understand  that moving me from Russia to US was a big thing, but I repayed my debt a long time ago by being an obedient child and all that shit. So by the description, if you know who I am and decide to help me, god bless you! And if not, oh well! I survived for 14 years I’ll survive for another 4.

I’m actually feeling better

Hi trollz! So this morning is actually pretty good. Except my sister said I’m a bitch for dating this guy I half like. Though, I half like him, and I’m doing it so he for once has a girlfriend who actually makes physical contact (not sex) and talks to him in real life and not text. So, I’m putting his needs in front of mine right? Well anyway, I feel like what I’m doing is right. I’m helping someone. And just a little f.y.i: the guy’s been crushing on me since the beginning of sixth grade so I feel its fair to give him a chance instead of a guy who I like (love) because he cared about me and tried to tend my needs, unlike the guy I was obsessed with. That kinda makes me feel bad, cuz I told him all about that guy, and how much I love him, and how gorgeous he is without even thinking about him. And now knowing how he felt about me and telling him about my crush I feel sorta bad.